I know you think that I’m someone you can trust.

I suppose there are things that I could say,

But I suppose they wouldn’t really matter anyway.

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It’s a tug of war between what’s comfortable and what she really wants

Here I sit before you all in blog land, a changed woman.  And why is that you may ask?  Because, I have a desk type situation set up in my room and its pretty perfect, I’m not going to lie.  I’ve sat here putting pen to paper on all these thoughts that just roam around freely in my mind, and it feels great.  Who woulda thought that a simple desk, a simple office set up could get the creativity rolling.  This year has been odd, magical, it’s caused me to a grow as a person, and that wouldn’t be possible without the bad as well.  We’re always trying to play the bad things over and over again, but why?  Doing that just makes us stay stuck in the same situation as before.  Its okay to let go, if the end result is your wellbeing.  That’s the thing they don’t tell us, it’s okay to let go.

sleep with one eye open, gripping your pillow tight

I had me one of those dreams, I used to have all the time, last night.  I wouldn’t really call it a dream, more like a flashback or a nightmare.  When I woke up my arm was hurting as if I had actually been hit over and over again.  Ugh, but when I woke up it was raining.  Maybe the rain caused my bad dream, or the book I was reading before I fell asleep.  All I know is I don’t want those dreams to continue.  Too graphic for me.  Today is a new day though, another chance at another week.  Another chance to break this weeks stats at the gym, and with the mostly vegan diet.