I had it all planned out before you met me

Had my third photography class yesterday, and we worked on portraits.  I wish I would have brought a subject because, it was kind of awkward shooting pictures of people I didn’t know and also because there were a bunch of us taking lots of pictures of the same subject.  I seem to be kind of meek in crowds, the instructor kind of called me out and told me to take a turn lol.  Not sure when I became such a nervous Nelly.  Even the new member pics of me on the church website look awkward as all get out lol I just don’t like to draw attention to myself I suppose.

My instructor suggested taking the boys I sit for to the park and practicing portraits on them.  I’m actually watching them overnight, and I think we may just go do that tomorrow.  I’m finally for the first time since getting this nice camera, shooting on manual and I’m seriously thinking of buying myself a fancy new lens for my Birthday.  I think I deserve it lol.  I was shooting pictures for Ebay today, and I can already see the difference, the pictures are looking a lot sharper.  Since I have a lot of free time, I always end up staying after the class, to learn more, and discuss my pictures and we were talking about how I take pictures of clothes all the time, and hopefully next time the instructor will have some tips for me, so I’m kind of really excited about that.

Business is still going good, I kind of got discouraged because the inventory is really piling up, but me and my sister completely cleaned the entire house, including the death piles I had all over the living room, my room, and even spread into the kitchen.  We did a spring cleaning if you will, and got rid of our rug, got rid of the treadmill, trying to get rid of the drums, and just trying to get the house looking good again.  We never really invite anyone over, and we want to change that.  It’s easy to let one thing lead to a gazillion things and then the house just submitting to the mess of a small start up business.  The house looks great now, more open, less cluttered, and I actually got quite a few things listed today before work.

That is all that I can offer at this time.

Forgiveness came up in my devotional today, and that is something I think I will always struggle with.  Being mad, harboring anger toward someone takes up so much energy, it isn’t really worth it if you think about it, you only end up hurting yourself.  For some reason I feel compelled to write more lately, but I’m not sure that anything I’m writing or even thinking for that matter, is making any sense.  But, forgiveness is something I need to work on, He forgave me, the least I can do is forgive others.

I love binge watching Criminal Minds while I’m listing on Ebay.  I’ve got at least 6 death piles go on here, but I’m trying.  Seems I’ve been sleeping on thrift outlet, I found an amazingly old school panam bag that I can’t wait to get listed.  I saw it and thought I had heard of it before from someone in the reseller community, but then I remembered where I had seen it.  I’m kind of obsessed with Gilmore Girls in the way that I am obsessed with 13 Going on 30 lol they both make me insanely happy, so sometimes I go back and watch them anywho, when Rorie goes to spy on Luke’s daughters mom, she has a store where she sales one of a kind items, may even be a resell shop, and Rorie picks out a Panam bag to give to her mom. LOL!  Why/how would I remember that?

And all God’s children said amen!

Today I joined Heights Presbyterian Church, and how awesome is it to be a part of something again.  This was also the first service I’ve got to be a part of that was in the new sanctuary, and it is quite beautiful.  I’m looking forward to all the doors that will open and close along the journey of my faith, and I think this move hopefully was an important one.

You can’t save everyone, but you always try, even if its hopeless.  No one ever is hopeless.

 

Today is my Dad’s Birthday, he is really an incredible guy, I sometimes forget how lucky I am to have a Dad that actually cares about his kids.  But, it’s more than that, my dad cares about his entire family.  He is the one making sure everything gets done and I mean everything.  He is the one that hears what Mamaw has on her mind about some such project, and he gets it done.  He is the one running people up to the ranch to get the grass mowed, the wood burned, the roof fixed, he runs the whole show.  I actually didn’t get to see him today because he ran up to Lampasas to drop off the tractor, oh and did I mention we just made that 5 hour drive each way Friday?  That guy never stops, so lucky to have him in my life.

 

I’ve had a pretty awesome week on Ebay.  Which makes up for getting my bank account zapped clean, I suppose.  I’ve easily cleared a 100 bucks in the last three or four days, which is pretty legit for my half hearted beginners business.  Imagine if I put all of my effort into this and had everything listed…geeze, I’m working on it.  It’s a one woman project, and it takes a lot.  The community on instagram is really helpful and friendly, they all seem to push everyone along, I can dig it.  I think it’s important to have people rooting you on.  One of my better sales this week, were two cards against humanity expansion packs that I paid 79 cents each for and sold for 20 bucks plus shipping.  Gah, it’s kind of amazing what people will buy on Ebay.

 

Life is funny

*Note to self*

When self parking on 6th street, don’t use your debit card.  Someone definitely got ahold of my information and zapped my bank account…good times.  People are so smart, they should use that for good instead of bad.  Now I have to wait like 10 days for a new card, and 10 days to get my money back but, on the bright side of things, at least I almost always have cash and a full tank of gas at the moment bam.

For goodness sake, I wasn’t told you’d be this cold

2:42am

I said my piece, now it’s time to say goodbye,

and I’m never looking back,

I lost too much time on this dead end track.

 

Words get lost in my head,

I try and try to write them all out before I succumb to bed.

But today, I’m letting that feeling of dread

leave my head, and I’m finally

finally

going to bed.

Goodbye.

You smashed a glass into pieces, and that’s around the time I left

We’re all just a little too sad for no real reason.  It’s easy to forget that we have so much going for us, today I’m choosing to remember that.  God is great, the opportunities He gives us are great, and the doors He helps us close are even better, even when we don’t want to close those doors.  Having a good week on Ebay, today I plan on listing, listing, listing!  I’ve got a huge death pile of potential money making items just sitting in the solarium.  I need some coffee, or some kind of motivation to get through it.  I like when the community talks about listing everything because we are in the business of making money, not the storage business, and it makes sense.  Right now, I have two totes listed, and one to go through and list still.  The potential is there, I just need to kick the laziness to the curb.  I’ll call this my first break of the day, time to get back to it.  Business is booming, as long as I put in the work.