Blame it on the booze,
or the pills,
or the late night feels…
Blame it on the one that got away,
or the one who chose not to stay,
or the one that wasn’t actually ever the one, not even just a little bit.
acted as a filler, something that filled the void,
until you realized that the void was something that could never be filled by a person.
A mere mortal could not fill the emptiness that you couldn’t ever describe,
couldn’t even begin to describe.
The emptiness could only be filled, as you dove deeper and deeper into the Word,
and the Word was heard and the rest,
well the rest just didn’t really matter after that.
After waiting nearly 3 months and just accepting the fact that I would never be paid from my former employer, I finally received my last check and I may or may not have jumped for joy! (May not). It’s been a heck of a ride since quitting but a few things I’ve realized
1) Retail is terrible, and I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy…not that I have any of those. I’d rather call them lurkers
2)Life is so much more pleasant when you aren’t wasting 40+ hours in a job you absolutely loathe, simply because you have health insurance and a steady income.
3)If you aren’t living a life that enables you to use your God given talents, are you really even living? The answer of course, especially in my case, is no.
4)No matter how safe a job, or a friendship, or a relationship for that matter might make you feel, you weren’t meant to live a life of safety. There is no sense in sticking with that meaningless job, or that meaningless relationship, especially when it becomes toxic. True blessings come from living a life with Christ, and to live a life with Christ, sometimes you have to step out of that safety zone and embark upon that great unknown.
She closes her eyes, takes a deep breath and embarks upon what could be her biggest adventure yet.